Sad Day

Today was the worst day ever. I never wanted to ever live to see my son die, let alone hammered to a cross in front of a large crowd. I have been very low key lately. I have not had many encounters with my son in a long time and I was ready to die when Mary told me that Jesus had been captured. Mary and John were so sad because they loved him so much and they were so close. I felt terrible because I never got to tell him how much I loved him... It hurts me so much inside :'(